Why Involuted Speculations?

I started this blog back in 2007. At the time, I was not a Christian but a vigorous opponent of Christianity. I started the blog basically to kill time, as I had moved to Idaho from NYC and found it to be too slow-paced for me. I was in school studying literary theory, poststructuralism, postmodernism, and philosophy proper, and this blog was meant to be a place where my complicated and inwardly directed (i.e. involuted) theories about epistemology, aesthetics, and ontology (i.e. speculations) could be posted in an environmentally friendly manner. As one who suffers from OCD, I now know that without medication I exhibit the symptoms of what is called hypergraphia, i.e. a compulsive desire to write. My hypergraphia manifested itself in the many journals I had begun to collect, all of which were saturated with philosophical rants, speculative considerations on poetic meter, aesthetic theorizing, poems, short fiction, and whatever else I felt compelled to write about. So having a blog was a great way to eliminate the growing fire hazard in my home!

Hence, the title of my blog: Involuted Speculations. I never intended to become a Christian given to the defense of the Gospel of Jesus Christ (as I’ve explained in my personal testimony), but God had other plans for me. He saved me and gave me the desire to defend the truth against his enemies, among which I once found myself standing proudly. I didn’t really think about the title until recently, so my writing here continued over the years and brought me a few followers here and there, which eventually added up. The blog title didn’t change, but the content did. Instead of speculation, my blog is given to the defense of the truth. Are there some speculative posts? Yes, but these are speculative only within the very restrictive parameters laid out by the Word of God.

In other words, I’m not winging it when it comes to what I am saying about the Christian faith. My beliefs, and whatever minimal speculation I engage in, are in conformity with the doctrines contained in the 1689 London Baptist Confession, which itself is in general agreement with the Westminster Confession of Faith, as well as the Larger and Shorter Catechisms.